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Thursday, August 27, 2009

First NEW Family Photo & Deep Thoughts

Here is our first official pic of the whole NEW and improved Becking crew. Again, thanks Cheri! This was at her son Brock's graduation party. I need to put this out on the table fellow bloggers....I have had a tough time blogging lately. Not because I have not been inspired or moved lately. Most of the time I am sure I sound like an over the top broken record here, but hey, it's my big love blog, so I guess I will continue to write what I am feeling.
It seems like God continues to show me unprecedented levels of faith in people in and around my life. Last week a family in our community tragically lost their 20 month old son in a drowning accident. I cannot begin to comprehend that loss...not even in the smallest way. The faith that God gave the mom was and still is astounding to me. I am completely blown away and very humbled. While thousands of people prayed for their child, what God did through this mom has changed people's lives. It is not my purpose to talk about details of this family's loss, but I do want to say that I praise God for their faith through this time of such loss. I have grown so much through the words of this mom in the past week. I have been challenged in my own faith and I am in awe of what God has done for the good through this terrible accident.
In addition to this, I am continually reminded something about my girls....That they are not mine, but God's gift to me for a time. I am so thankful to be able to be in their lives and I don't want to miss any moment of either of their lives- because my mind and heart are elsewhere...Stressed, frustrated, overwhelmed at times with momhood, being selfish, apathetic, bored with life....These are things that creep into my mind at times and want to be more and more mindful of it.
What a waste of time when we dwell on things we cannot control. Money, work, family problems, illness...the list goes on.
What REALLY is God calling each of us to do? For me, I mean for real, WHAT is it? How uncomfortable do I need to be to be in the right spot? Why does it have to be so scary?
I never thought of myself as the motherly type, and now I have 2 of the most awesome little humans in my life, and I wonder what more is in store there. Could I handle 4 or 5 kids in my life? Sometimes I think YES! and others I think, heck no! Wild to think about what God is calling us each to step up and do....I know one thing, I am supposed to DO something, ALL OF THE TIME! Instead of getting in my own little comfort zone where everything is nice and cozy and...BORING!!!
So, here I go into a new endeavor....A College girl's Small group! Yep, I said it! Stay tuned!
I also realize I have not been my usual comedic self lately, and it is not for a loss of laughter in our house, but some stuff just hangs heavy in my mind and this is a good place to get it all out!
Peace Out!